It's a long story. My children were taken away from me when they were
2 and 3 years old. My Mom talked me into signing them over to her,
stating I was going to lose the court proceedings and my husband could
end up with the kids and I would never see them again. She promised
me that if I signed them over to her, I would never lose contact and
would always be a part of their lives no matter what. The reason the
CPS were called was because my Mom and sister decided I was neglecting
them because I went to the store and left them asleep in their beds by
themselves for about 20 min. More and more stories started to surface
and pretty soon there was the CPS at my doorstep. They brought us to
court and sent us to have psychological evaluations to determine what
placement was in the best interest of the children. The evaluations
were totally inaccurate and the evaluator's recommendations were
impossible for me to complete within the 2 year period of the court
proceedings. I had to make a quick decision because the courts had to
close the case and I decided (since their father had entered into a
new relationship and moved in with her, along with 5 other children of
the woman's own) that my Mom may be right and that I wouldn't get to
see them. I was also at the time serving time in custody and on an
ankle bracelet (house arrest) for a crime both my husband and I were
charged with - Welfare Fraud - and the DA made a deal with us that if
one of us plead guilty to the crime, the other one would go free. My
husband begged me to plead guilty, based on the fact that he was
already on probation and a suspended sentence - and that he would for
sure go to prison if he were to take it and if I were, he said I'd
only get probation. My Mom begged me not to take it... but I thought
we were a family and that I was doing the best thing to keep us all
together. My husband put himself in a treatment center (a half way
house) and the day he drove up to the facility, I cried and asked him
if he was sure he was only doing this in order to get our kids back.
He promised me that day that he was, and that he wouldn't break his
word... and I believed him and put my faith this promise and plan. I
put myself into a treatment center as well but the facility was unable
to deal with my particular mental problems, so they had to let me go.
I was put back in custody (jail) and had to actually show up to one of
my court custody hearings in a jail suit and shackles. This obviously
didn't help my chances of getting my kids back, nor did the ongoing
accusations that were being manifested from every direction, including
my sister, mom, the hospital, the social workers were saying they
thought the kids needed "separation time" because they were difficult
to settle down when I had to leave... and this was devastatingly
difficult for both me and I assume for my children.
Anyway, my kids have lived with my Mom for the past 15 years now...
and they've been brainwashed against me and have had an active part in
alienating me from their lives.
But they sing these beautiful love songs and I imagine they are
singing some of them to me... so I wanted to know if anyone could find
some songs that could be from a mother who loves her children more
than life itself... to express how much I miss them, long for them,
want them, am sorry for losing them, and anything else loving I could
say to them.
Thank you for your help!